ok so hello_scorpling made me do this :)
This meme is going around! I like it, and I think everyone on my flist should do it!


• Post ten of any pictures currently on your hard drive that you think are self-expressive.
• NO CAPTIONS!!! It must be like we're speaking with images and we have to interpret your visual language just like we have to interpret your words. ...
• They must ALREADY be on your hard drive - no googling or flickr! They have to have been saved to your folders sometime in the past. They must be something you've saved there because it resonated with you for some reason.
• You do NOT have to answer any questions about any of your pictures if you don't want to. You can make them as mysterious as you like. Or you can explain them away as much as you like.


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Things have just been crazy lately. It's freezing here.. gahh. I love the fact that it snowed but why must it be so cold? last week I was coming home late and I had forgot my key. My friend who had dropped me off had already driven away, and no matter how loud I pounded on the door I couldn't wake up my sister. and it was freezing outside! >_< I tried to get in though my window but I had it so the window would only open about 2 inches, I was trying for like an hour to get the damn thing open but it didn't work. My sister's car was locked otherwise I would of just slept in there. so I wandered around the neighborhood  till I saw that someone was up watching tv. He let me use his phone to call my sister but she wouldn't answer the phone! so I tried calling some of my friends and they wouldn't answer either.. argh.. everyone was asleep because it was so late. The guy wouldn't let me stay at his house because he was just renting a room from the old couple that lived there, they probably wouldn't be happy with him if they found some stranger sleeping in thier living room. But this guy was really nice and he drove me over to a friends house. haha my friend was really surprized to see me waking her up around 3 in the morning lol.

because of that little adventure I caught a cold :( aww well it could of been worse if that guy didn't help me out. really, people are so nice to me. and speaking of being caught out in the cold. We have a new dog.. >_>;; driving home my brother in law saw a dog outside with icecicles hanging from it's mouth. yeah it was that cold. we took it home and well now we have four dogs.. taking care of three dogs is bad enough. this new dog is so hyper and not trained it's frustrating. That dog has eaten some christmas ordiments off the tree lol. I hope we find it's owner soon. well it's good we took it in, I'd feel so bad if it had froze to death out there. my cat and this new dog are not exactly getting along well haahaha. it's hilarious.

other than that I've been sooooo busy with everything. christmas stuff and work.. blah. this post is pointless

okay okay...
so the Trash Totem Pole was a bad idea. Trying to make this thing in time for the deadline pretty much killed me dead. of course I got sick and missed the art contest all together >_< stupid. stupid.
I should of realized making such a large scale art project would wear me out. In fact it's a give in. When I could of done something much easier. why did I do such a dumb thing? uhh well sometimes I get excited over an idea and don't think things though haha. ohh well. I'll be slowly still working on it.. just so I can finish it. who knows maybe there will be another art contest to submit it to. :P
well now I can concentrate on other things I've been putting off. my procrastination is something else.

The other day I went for the frist time down to the creek by my house. I had brought my sister's camera with me and got a ton of great pictures. it's crazy but they drained the creek the very next day! I guess they drain the creek every winter for whatever reason. So I was lucky I went the day I did or I wouldn't have gotten to see it till spring. not that it's something amazing. I mean, it's just a little creek over run with weeds. But I find it beautiful none the less. it looked gorgous with the fall colors. you can see I live in a small rural town lol. it's cute though.

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look at my cute new icon I made :D


umm anyhow I've been absent from LJ for awhile so I thought I should post something...
NO LJ CUT D:
here's a random sketch from the children's book I'm working on. hehe. It's actually going really well. I know I can get stressed over these things, but my boss has been really kind and loves everything I do.

I'm working on a ton of things not just the children's book. I'm also trying to win an upcoming art contest. The idea is to build something out of trash and make it art. I thought I'd make a totem pole.. haha I don't know what I got myself into. it's sooooo much work, mostly hauling garbage I find near the rail road tracks home is the hard part. I've gotten some wierd looks from people while dragging a car bumper home XD.

I'm doing this in hopes I can win the money. but I am also just hoping I can make something, it's gonna be fun.. wish me luck.

I've also been going crazy trying to make presents for people. more origami. I'm almost finished with the "hot air balloon" I'm making for my friend Harold. I must say it's looking pretty awesome so far. I'll have to post a pic of it when I'm done.  I've got a long list of things I'm making for people and I actually have no idea how to make them I'm just figuring it out as I go along. I think I love trying to figure this kinda stuff out, it's so much fun even though it takes up a lot of my time. I'm hoping I can have presents for everyone for Christmas.

I've been doing  a lot better healthwise. a while ago the heart doctor gave me the okay to exercize. whoo hoo! it's like only been over two years since I've exercized so uhh. yeah got some cataching up to do lol. I got to go on a walk down to the creek near my house. I've been wanting to do that ever since I've moved here a year ago. so beautiful.. also it feels so good to be able to get out of the house. and as I mentioned earlier I've been carring garbage home from the rail road tracks and such. I never thought I'd been doing something like that so soon. XD

I'm really excited about the election. I'll be voting for Obama. :) It's funny I live in a "Red" state so the politcal ads here seem completely opposite of what I normally would see in California. "Don't vote for Walt Minnick he supports tuffer gun laws." lol wut? I think that's a good reason to vote for him.

umm yeah.. I'll try to post more later besides just ramblings. :p
I love you all

a meme everyone's doing./..

you are lightcyan #E0FFFF

Your dominant hues are green and blue. You're smart and you know it, and want to use your power to help people and relate to others. Even though you tend to battle with yourself, you solve other people's conflicts well. Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working. Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.

the spacefem.com html color quiz

wow that actually sounds like me. "know it all, lazy and happily annoying" hehe how embarrassing. It's funny though If I think about it half of the time I can be the complete oppisite of that. "totally insecrure about how stupid I am, pushing myself too much, a total downer" hmm I also don't like the color light cyan that's like the color of paste I'd rather be bright red or something more intense.

umm remember a while ago I talked about this dream I had that I wanted to draw into a comic? well I've been slowly working on it.
see. just 2 pages la.
( a couple comic pages ergh..  )
I really have no good excuse for all the whining on past posts and not working on all the things I said I'd work on. so I apologize for that. sorry. >_<

There's a lot of things that are troubling me... but I'm not going to get into that.
Insteed I will talk about Origami.
I've been spend far too much time on making origami. but I think it's been helping me calm down. lol I don't know I guess the tideous actions and just being able to make something artsy without much focus helps me.
I already made all the kusudama balls and given them away. look how pretty they turned out XD

 

I actually made more than that.. and still I'm making more
now I'm trying to make lanterns and other stuff. it's fun. >_> really.
I know there are things I need to draw and I have been drawing but for some reason I just have no confidence in my drawings right now. :P and I've been hording all my stuff. lame yeah. but hey I'm trying to fight though it. really. and somehow I think making origami is helping me a lot. lol
so yeh. I love origami. haha I am such a dork.

The whole Children's book thing has gotten me in a good mood and I was up the other night drawing stupid things from my childhood. lol I'd thought I'd share them with you you even though it's kinda embarassing. >_> but I think posting stuff will help me get over my insecurity about the drawing thing. so here's some doodles.

( this has nothing to do with anything. )

umm I got a haircut the other day.. it looks hilarious. but luckly I can pull it off. actually I really love it! I need a camera so you can all see it. It's really short.. and uh kinda looks like a mushroom lol. j/k it's cute.

right now I'm not happy with anything I draw or ever drew.. >_< perfect timing for someone to hire me to draw a childrens book. gah! what am I gonna dooo?
I know I know it's wonderful news. But I feel so talentless right now. bleh.
I keep saying I'm going to post some art but I'm so darn insecure right now. what's wrong with me? lol
I've got all these comics in the works >_> why do I keep putting these things off? :P
okay I'll post something >_< ahh

here's a sample of sumtin' diolage blacked out because it's lame.
one day I will be brave enough to post all of it. >_<.

I haven't posted anything in forever.
lots of stuff been going on.. but I'll write about that in non-pointless post.
I swear I will post some actually content sometime soon. with art and all that good stuff.

Been reading Blade of the Immortal. very violent manga where people get sliced up every chapter. it's pretty graphic but the art is amazing and the story is wonderful and so far the violence hasn't really bothered me too much like I thought it would. I think I probably should be bothered by it though. @_@ and I've been watching Higurashi no Naku Koro ni. crazy violent anime; really it's over the top. Seeing people getting thier faces beaten in with a metal bat ect.. ahhgrh there's something seriously wrong with me that I find this entertaining. >_> maybe it's because the character designs are all so cute, it's like watching the cast of Azumanga Daioh! go ape shit.
 
also also...
I Hate reality shows. I just wanted to say that.

I'm so happy! I just went shopping and got the custest green dress, it has white pokadots <3 there was this huge sale and I bought a ton of earrings. lol most of them are really big tacky earrings that look like they came out of the 80's. But I don't care I need something colorful and fun!
also some good news. I finally finished my first kusudama ball. (the dogs wont be eatting this one) it looks beautiful! XD I need a camera so I can show you guys. man those things take forever to make though. I'm trying to make at least seven for my friends. argh hopefully I can get faster at this... wish me luck.


They've got the Democratic and Repulican conventions goings ons. I'm usually very pestimistic about these things but I can't help but feel excited about the election. I'll be voting for Obama although I think no matter who is elected things will get better. only because noone can possibly be worse than Bush.
watch this it's funny because it's true.



also good news I'll be getting a scanner! so be looking forward to lots of artwork/fanart from me. and comics and crappy doodles. :D

 haha oh wow it's like my childhood all over again,  I know how this guy feels. also I swear hesounds like Ray Ramano.

 

 

As for Anime I just watched “Clannad” and really loved it. I was surprised because I usually hate that kind of show. But I found it really funny, and I totally want Tomoya as my boyfriend.  Because I liked Clannad I decided to try out Kanon, which is made by the same people. I thought it was ~okay. The main guy was boring, and some of the girls were pretty annoying, also it was really hard for me to see Ayu and Yuuichi as a couple because Ayu looks like she’s 10 years old. It just seems wrong! There were some very sad parts, all in all it was dramatic. I still can’t decide if I like it or not. >_< IDK

I thought I’d try AIR next, I hear it’s uber depressing. But  I think I can handle it.

I want to watch a fun action packed anime after that.. any suggestions?

 

Also since I’ve got a ton of free time. Besides watching TV I’ve been making Origami. Haha I’ve been in such an artists block lately and I’ve been totally depressed over it. I just tried some origami and now I’m feeling so much better and more creative than I’ve been in a long time.  I’m really trying to work on these Kusudama balls to make for people. 

 I only wish they could turn out this nice

 

 

It’s taking me a long time but it’s fun and I feel like I’m actually creating artwork. Ugh my drawings have sucked.. I’m getting more confidence with the origami so I think it’ll help me in the end with drawing.

Still no scanner.. ugh. One day I will be able to upload the comic pages.. one day.

It took me forever to get around to it but I finally watched the last episodes of Avatar. And I gotta say:
The Avatar Finale was Epic! but.. I'm so sad it's over now..;_;
Other people have already posted their thoughts on it. dustyjack pretty much summed up my thoughts on the the last episodes here
except all cannon ships ♥ ♥ ♥ Also I love Aang more than ever!

but bad news guys! I have to get a Root canal! ugh. My tooth is killing me so hopefully this will fix it. Also my ANA test came back postive so I am now officially diagnoised with Lupus :p which is good I guess. I mean to have a diagnosis.

uh in other news. I don't know when I'll be able to get any comic pages (I'm so sorry Kyatto) up since my sister moved the computer out to the living room now I can't scan anything since the scanner isn't hooked up yet, and she won't let me hook it up..wtf?. yet she's never going to get around to it. it's been three weeks. ugh, so frustrating. I also can't be on-line as much as I used to. lame. 

PS. Watch Kaiba! it's such a trippy and awesome anime.

My sister has given her cat hazel to me because I'm the only one she likes.. Idk.. I'm not so sure.





 

what the hell is wrong with me? I tsayt up all night working on this i sketched it whileing wathing 48 hours i need shlepp
wtf I'm tyoing like I'm drunk.

 

Spring has just gotten here this last month. It's been cold for way too long. >_< but it's raining a lot, at least all the snowing and hailing is over with for now. I'm can't wait for summer! I love the sun and hot weather. XD I never want to be in the snow again. It's so cold!
Everytime spring comes it makes me sad because I know I'm missing another spring in Napa. I only lived there for two years but it's the most beautiful place I've ever been. In the spring the entire place is covered with flowers more than anyother place I've been before. It's just magical. I love summer there too with all the hot air balloons taking off every morning. I was lucky enough to live close to where they took off so I would see them flying above and sometimes landing right on our street. so pretty!
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